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Once upon a time there was a deeper understanding. I remember the pure innocence of our love. How uncomplicated the relationship was in the absence of great responsibility. Perhaps our age or the lack of smack-you-in-your-face experiences made life and love effortless. I feel fortunate, blessed, to have enjoyed the simplicity of loving you.Now, the feelings are complicated. No longer just you and I. I sense the great divide that keeps us apart and long for the feelings of old, the comfort of you that made the universe right. Your words, your touch, they communicate nothing because that is what you have to offer me. The bursts of passion you let escape cloud the picture of reality you paint with your actions. I recognize my own behavior for what it is- unpredictable. I say and promise one thing, yet mean and do another, so all the more complex the situation becomes.Saddened, surprised, and embarrassed I reach for the shattered remains to piece what is left of me back together, wondering if it would have been better to have never tasted you.